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Well, I did not do as well as I had hoped in that last round of quitting, but I am doing much better this time.  I drank again that night of my last post.  And for a few nights after that.  November 13th was the last night I drank.  I called my friend, Karen, on the evening of the 11th and asked her to come over and have wine with me.  My cat had passed away that morning.  She was 20 and I loved her!! We drank the whole bottle of wine and opened the 2nd.  I do remember going to bed that night and I did get up for work in the morning. The next day after work I decided I deserved to finish the bottle of wine that we had opened the night before.  That was not enough so then I started making cosmos.  Not a wise choice.  I do not remember going to bed that night.  Wednesday night mark and I needed to go do some errands.  We stopped at Eternity, a brewery, and I had several glasses of wine there.  I do not remember the ride home but I decided to make cosmos again when we got home.  Julia apparently came over to watch the masked singer, but I do not remember her being there.  I fell asleep in the chair. I woke up early on the morning of the 14th, mind is racing, eyes red and watering.  How many times will I be able to tell people that it is my sinuses?  I want to be done.  I signed up for SSK that day.  I remember telling Julia and Mark that I want to do a 100-day challenge of not drinking.  Mark did say he would do it with me, but he has not. The neighbors came over that night.  Mark drank, I did not.  I felt like crap.
 

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