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I have not posted in quite a while!  Life has been busy for sure.  I am nearing 6 months of not drinking and I am feeling good.  

We have been up north quite a bit this summer and I am enjoying every moment of that.  The sky and moon were awesome last time we were up there, so I had to take a picture.  The clouds and the river with the moon reflecting on it was beautiful. I look forward to the day I can retire so that we can spend more time up there at a relaxed pace and not run around frantic trying to get everything done in two days so we can get back to go to work on Monday mornings. That will be so nice.

I do not have to much to say but I will try to write more often.  I am also doing a new bible study on Mondays that I would like to write more about.

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