Transformation Year

  Today is day 60!!  Two months I have made it alcohol free.  I can't say that it has been easy, but it is amazing.  I feel so much better physically.  I think I look better physically also.  Mentally, well that is another story.  I still struggle on many days and still think about having a glass of wine and having my own little personal party in my house. Drinking definitely made it so that I did not have to think about anything that was bothering me.  That is not really a good thing.  Sometimes we need to deal with all the crap going on and all the crap that has been stored up inside of us for years.  That is what is going on with me now.  Dealing with all the stored-up crap.  And it is alot of crap.   Saturday, we had the baby shower for my son and daughter in law.  Baby girl will be here at the end of July.  I am very excited about this baby!  It will be my 7th grandchild and hopefully this child wi...

  Well, I have made it to day 41 now!  Things have not been easy.  I have had alot of cravings lately, but I try to find other things to do to take my mind off of it. I have been working outside quite a bit which is something very different for me.  I am used to just sitting in the house scrolling on my phone or reading or watching tv.  I was looking at the place where I always sit and there is an actual indent when my ass normally is.  I am glad that I am getting outside more.  My body also feels it.  I need to add some actual exercise into my routine again so that I build up some endurance and strength.  I know I will be sore for a few days or weeks, but it will be better for me. I am also having a lot of emotions and memories.  I have not thought about things that were bad in my life in so long, probably ever.  It just happened and then I put it back in that little box where I needed it to stay until I felt stronger.  It is ...