Transformation Year

  Well, it has been 43 days since I have drunk alcohol. There have been a lot of ups and downs and things I have managed to get through without alcohol.  My daughter's wedding, thanksgiving, Christmas eve, Christmas day.  It has been difficult at times but also much better at times.  I have committed to the 100 days that I drunkenly told Mark and Julia I was going to do.  There have been days that I have simply had to white knuckle it.  Those were nights that I just didn't plan to have a plan because I did not think it would be difficult, but it was.  Other nights have been easier since I have planned for it.  I have so many NA drinks that I have purchased and some are good, and some are not.  I have not found an NA red wine that I have enjoyed yet but hoping I do soon.  That was always my drink of choice.  I guess it does not really matter since the feeling of being buzzed/drunk is what the goal was always anyways, and these will n...

Well, I did not do as well as I had hoped in that last round of quitting, but I am doing much better this time.  I drank again that night of my last post.  And for a few nights after that.  November 13th was the last night I drank.  I called my friend, Karen, on the evening of the 11th and asked her to come over and have wine with me.  My cat had passed away that morning.  She was 20 and I loved her!! We drank the whole bottle of wine and opened the 2nd.  I do remember going to bed that night and I did get up for work in the morning. The next day after work I decided I deserved to finish the bottle of wine that we had opened the night before.  That was not enough so then I started making cosmos.  Not a wise choice.  I do not remember going to bed that night.  Wednesday night mark and I needed to go do some errands.  We stopped at Eternity, a brewery, and I had several glasses of wine there.  I do not remember the ride home...