Day 118! Almost 4 months of no alcohol. That is simply amazing to me. I am noticing a lot of things about myself that I did not ever really notice before. There are many things that aggravate me that I have always just drank to get rid of the feeling of being aggravated. I am also realizing that I do not know much about myself. I have no idea what I like to do except sit in a chair and drink. I have lost all my desire to work out and go running. I do watch people as they are out there running and think to myself, I really need to start doing that again. I felt so much better after a run. Not sure where my motivation has gone to. Some say that it is my body healing itself, but I am not sure. I am also gaining weight which is upsetting me a great deal also. I need to figure out how to get this all together. I am no longer numbing out drinking, but I am all messed up in other ways. UGH. I do enjoy not...