I am so very disappointed in myself today. I made it through so much and for 70 days. Then I decided that I could moderate, that I had it all under control and I should be able to just have a glass of wine and then stop. Well, that worked for a few days, but I always wanted more than that one glass. Yesterday I proved to myself that I cannot do that. I had a cosmo and then a dirty martini and then wine. Lets just say that it did not end well. I ended up saying things to my daughter that were not even remotely true. I am sure I hurt her feelings. I do not remember alot of the night and that is the thing that I hate the most and why I really wanted to quit. That and the fact that I say things that are so ridiculous when I am drunk. I am starting back at day one and this time I am fully aware that it is not an option for me to even have one drink. We leave for Mexico in 12 days, and I am not sure at all of how I am going to...